In case you haven't noticed, I have not been blogging since Sunday.... I decided to take a few days and regroup because I have not been producing the quality content I really want to provide here on Altered Whimseys, that and I've been trying to get over this nasty flu bug that put me in the hospital and really threw me for a loop. Yes, I was a mess. The past three days have really given me a chance to think about what I really want for Altered Whimseys, and my life. I was looking at my vision board and thinking.... is this really me? Is this really what I want for my life or was I just mimicking the vision boards of others in an effort to get mine out there. Then I began to doubt my word for this year.... Before the new year I chose the word chutzpah, a Yiddish term to describe someone who is bold and full of life and not afraid to be themselves. Then while watching Cori Spieker's Vision Board Party on YouTube I changed my word to free.... free to be me, free to express myself... you get the picture. Now after looking at my Vision for three solid weeks I have discovered that it's not ME. Not what I want to project, not how I want to be perceived. Then I saw this in my folder full of saved inspirations....
Then BAM! It hit me.... this is me. Just today I went live on Instagram (you can find me there as alteredwhimseys) and talked briefly about my word of the year and how it wasn't gelling with me anymore, it wasn't what I wanted to use to help me get through this year. Last year I was a hot mess, primarily trying to recover from 2016 which was ghastly (no, I'm not British, I just watch too much BBC and love British cinema). 2016 I dealt with recurring heart issues which resulted in a heart attack and bypass surgery... this is after the 5 stents between 2015 and 2016, my beloved Gram's passed away (one of the women who helped raise me), had a bit of a nervous breakdown and spent a week at the laughing academy, so basically I was a hot mess. 2017 was just a recovery.... Now 2018, I am so ready to LIVE! To be the woman I need to be.... strong, brave, kinder (I'll admit, I have not been very, well, my filter has been off and I've been a lot more honest than I need to be), unstoppable... I will be fierce. I'm already a fierce friend. Kimi and Cat can vouch for that one. So now I am about to reset my whole word for this year and create a 'Vision' planner using PhotoPlay's Rhapsody paper and the Reset Girl's A5 Carpe Diem Persimmon planner. (More photos to post when I'm done... I may even do a You Tube walk through when I'm done.)....
2018 will be a fierce year.....
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